Happy Holidays!

A month has gone by since I last wrote. My life has gotten very busy. Right now I am raising 10 golden retriever puppies because their mom Tess got mastitis and is at the veterinarians. The pups are doing well but it takes so much of my time. I knew there was a reason why I hadn't found a job yet. There is no way I could work and take care of these pups. I love them so much. They bring joy into my day with their antics. We are keeping one of the girls since Tess won't be able to have pups again. I want to have one of her offspring.

My Christmas tree is standing in my living room and has been there since Saturday and I haven't had a minute to decorate it. I will never have puppies again during the holidays. I haven't done a bit of shopping yet and I still have gifts to make. I guess it is a good thing I won't be seeing most my family until after Christmas. I sure will miss being with them on that day though. To me that is what Christmas is all about. Spending time with the people you love.

Jesus came to show us that Love is what is most important. We have the capacity to love everyone we meet and we should love them, even those who hurt us. "Love Thy Neighbor" means to love all people. That isn't always easy and since we are not perfect we have to work on that day after day. But doesn't it feel better inside to love someone than it does to hate. When we feel hate or anger how does your body feel. I can tell you mine feels awful. I would much rather feel love for those around me. When I really have trouble feeling that love for someone I say a prayer and let it go. Of course this may be after hours or even days of being upset. I hope to get better at letting it go much sooner.

I pray that you all have a Wonderful and Blessed Holiday Season. Be kind to a stranger, give them a smile. Many are alone at this time and even a smile from someone could make their day. Smiles are contageous so start an epidemic. Love and Blessings. Anne

Goddess Weekend Part 2

When I last posted here, I was telling you about the goddess weekend. I was about to have my aura picture taken for the first time. Many of us had decided to have a before the Gate of Grace aura picture taken and an after The Gate of Grace picture taken. I have included both pictures here. In the first picture you will be able to see my face and I am surrounded by color. On my left side there is a huge amount of pink and magenta. As we looked at this picture we realized that this was a figure like an angel or spirit guide who had an arm around me. The following are the meanings of the colors.

The color magenta means loving service to the world and will sacrifice for the highest good of others, finds joy in the little things of life.

Turquoise means humanitarian,expresses feelings, self responsibility and mass communication

Ibdigo means Third eye is open

Blue means sense of inner peace and calm, communicates well, expresses the Will of God, creative, nurturing.

pink means unconditional love, female intutition, feminine creativity.

Time came for me to enter The Gate of Grace. I took my closest friends with me. Lori arranged them in the positions they needed to be in. There was one who was behind me with a chair "just in case" I was told. As I stepped into the center or vortex, I immediately felt my body move. I was starting to spin clockwise and then foward and backward. This continued to happen and each time I went back I got scared and pulled myself forward. Then I started to hear "trust". I heard it over and over until I finally trusted and sure enough I went backwards and landed in the chair. At this point I felt like I was no longer in the room. I was in a place that looked a bit dark but not a scarey dark. Soon there were beings around me in a semi circle. First I saw them in clothing like royalty but that soon changed and they became light yet not like any light I had seen before. I could see details in their faces. One man to my right stood out the most. He had on a crown or hat with many detailed designs on it. He had very distinct features. I didn't know who he was but knew he was important to me somehow. I felt this incredible love coming from them. It made me cry. I couldn't believe they loved me. I have not felt love this way before, it was so pure and it touched me deep in my soul. Soon a woman walked up to me from the middle of the group. I recognized her. This is a very personal part of my experience so I would rather keep it for myself and family.

As I started to come back from this place I realized that there was a lesson for me. first I am never alone and I am loved very deeply. The second lesson is to trust.

When I came back to the room, Lori came up to me hugged me and said "You are loved" and then she looked at me and said "trust", that was my validation.

I went to get my second picture and was so surprised at the change. I was surrounded by yellow and gold light just as I was surrounded in the Gate by beings of Light. After finding out what the colors meant it all made sense to me.

Gold means Wisdom from within,enlightenment, fulfillment, joy

Yellow means Joy, sunshine, aquired knowledge, intellectual fulfillment

These were given to me in the Gate of Grace. I continue to process the experiences I had in the Gate. I have noticed that I have become stronger spiritually, I am noticing signs that may have escaped me before. For a few weeks I kept wanting to go back to feel what I felt there but I now realize it is inside of me and I can tap into it at any time. We are all surrounded by angels and spirits who are with us to help us learn the lessons we came here to learn. They have been sent to us from God. We need to trust them and know that they love us unconditionally. We should learn from them to love all those around us in this world uconditionally as well.

Love and Light Anne

Goddess Weekend Part I

Our annual goddess weekend was just over 2 weeks ago. It has taken me this long to process the events. Actually I am not done processing it all yet but thought I should share at least some of it. First let me tell you what this weekend is about. I am a member of a very loving group of Reiki Masters and we meet once a month. We do workshops and share reiki and learn at these meetings.

One of my friends in this group gets a beautiful home on the lake for one weekend in September. The home is awesome and very large. There are 6 bedrooms. We gather on Friday starting in the late afternoon. Some of the women who come, we only see once a year at this event so there is a lot of energy going around as people arrive. After we are all settled we order pizza and eat supper. After supper we gathered in the large livingroom and had a drumming circle. It was great. I was lucky to find a great deal on a new Djembe drum before the weekend. Then the cards came out and we broke off into smaller groups and did readings for each other. I had bought a new deck called Mermaids and Dolphins so I couldn't wait to try them out. I did readings with a couple of my friends.

Last year we stayed up pretty late but this year we went to bed at a decent time. I think the rainy weather made us sleepy.

Saturday morning I got up early and had breakdast. The weather was overcast but not rainy so I joined a group of my friends for a hike to the overlook. On a clear day you can see the lake and I have been told it is fantastic but when we got up there it was still foggy so we didn't see it. There seemed to be a couple of places that I felt drawn to in the woods as we walked. I felt energy coming from these places so I snapped a couple of pics which I am sharing with you here. I was not surprised to see a multitude of orbs in these spots. Some may say these are just moisture but I took other pictures and there were no orbs in them.

Lunch was glorious as we all brought homemade foods to share. One of our friends was building what is called "The Gate of Grace" in one of the rooms. We would all be going in and if we felt compelled to we could go into the middle which forms a vortex where it is said that the Breath of God flows through. Since I am no expert when it comes to the Gate of Grace I suggest you google it to get more information if you like. What I can do is share my experience in the Gate and I will do that soon.

There was also someone there who takes aura pictures. I had never had an aura picture taken before so I decided to have one done before being in the Gate and then after to see the difference.

When it was almost time for us to go to the room with the Gate of Grace, I was approached by the buillder of the Gate. She asked if she could talk to me and we went into the room where the gate was. I could feel the energy in the room. She told me that sometimes when she is building the Gate for a group she is told that someone needs to have what is called the "Christ Formation" done and this time that person was me. She explained that is was very powerful and life altering and asked if I wanted to do this. I fully agreed. Since this was going to be done privately with only my closest 7 friends I decided that I would not participate when the entire group went in. I didn't want to take up their time in the Gate. There were about 20 people at the house at this time.

There were a few who did not participate in the Gate so we decided to do some meditation with some beautiful thought provoking music one of the women brought with her. As I listened and relaxed a vision came to me. I was seeing victorian looking flowers like painted glass with dark black outlines. As I watched, the flowers kept changing and soon I was walking in a garden. This garden looked very old with high stone walls and old fountains. There were hedges and flowers everywhere and ivy was clinging to the walls. I had my hair up and was wearing a very flowy light colored gown. Then in a corner there was something that looked dark. It didn't feel bad but the color was dark. Soon I realized the dark color was the color of a suit and a man stepped forward. He was beautiful and I knew I loved him with all my heart and soul. As we stepped closer there was a glow around us. We never touched but the love was very strong between us. Then he started to back away and I became very sad. I felt such a loss it brought tears to my eyes. Then I saw this scene start to sink down. As this scene sank a new scene appeared. It looked like a desert. Everything was browns and tans. Wind was gently blowing sand all around and before me was a man who was dressed in Native American clothing. He had on a full headress of feathers that went all the way down his back. He was not looking at me but out onto the horizon. I felt his sadness. I could not help him but it was something I had to accept. Then I came back. When I came back to myself there were tears on my cheek and I felt a huge loss. We all shared our experiences and soon it was time for my aura picture.

I will continue with my experiences in part 2 of Goddess Weekend.

The Price of Fame

My husband and I had to go to Walmart today to buy a TV. We picked one out and were on our way to the register when I saw before me a very famous rock star. I had met him twice before but had not seen him in about 10 years. I spoke to him as I was walking by. He was very nice and was trying to remember our last meeting but just couldn't. He gave me an autograph for my son Matthew and we chatted for a few more minutes as others started milling around to catch a glimpse or take a picture with their phones or get an autograph. Something told me to give his friend/body guard my business card. I am not sure if he will ever see it and doubt he will ever get in touch but my gut said give it so I did. As I waited in line behind him at the register, I watched all the people wanting to take a piece of this man. He didn't seem to mind all of them wanting autographs or the pictures. He even signed my shirt. When he was finished with his purchase he said goodbye to everyone and left. We were close behind him as we were leaving at the same time. He was stopped by some more people on his way out. Outside the store he was speaking to a man who looked like a manager and as we walked out they walked back in.
On the way home I pondered all of this. Part of me felt bad for this man. He really can't go out in public without being approached. He told me that he meets so many people that he just can't remember many of them. How can he find the peace and the privacey we all take for granted. I can go anywhere and do anything and not have to worry about someone watching me or bothering me. I guess it is the price you pay for fame.
Of course this man brings joy to so many with his music. I wonder if he realizes how much he can brighten the day of a person just by saying hello or signing that autograph. Everyone was smiling as they took their pictures and spoke with him. I noticed a young man standing and watching all that was going on. It was obvious that he had a develpmental disability. This famous man noticed him also and stopped what he was doing at the register and went over and gave him a high five. What a smile that young man had on his face. I was impressed.
Remember that you do not have to be famous to brighten up someone's day. Sometimes all it takes is acknowledging the presence of someone with a smile or a hello. This shows the other person that they matter. It may the only time they get that recognition all day. So don't be afraid to smile at your neighbor. Smiles are contageous. I bet even if they are feeling bad they will smile back.
Part of me still feels bad for this man. It must be so hard at times to be in the lime light. My wish for him is that in his life he has the peace within. Maybe he does already and that is why he is so good with the public. He is in the Rock Hall of Fame and has accomplished much in his life and I am sure he will accomplish even more.
I am grateful that I had the opportunity to see him and chat with him today. I am grateful for my life of peace and privacy. I am grateful for all of my friends who come and read this blog.
Love and Peace Anne

Abundance

When you think of abundance what goes through your mind. Is it having lots of money? Maybe having expensive things. We all have different ideas about abundance. My idea of abundance has changed. I used to think it was having a lot of money. I feel differently now.
It has been a year since my back inhury and I have not worked in 11 months. Somehow we have made it financially this far. Many times I would wonder how we would pay a bill and each time the bill would get paid. We have learned to live on a very tight budget. Sure we don't have a lot of extras but we don't seem to miss them.
This summer has been very abundant right in our back yard. We have had two different kinds of wild berry crops like I have never seen in the 23 years I have lived here. I feel this was a gift from God and there was no way I was giong to waste any of it. I have been canning jam all summer. First I used the wild black cap raspberries. I knew we had these in the yard before but this year they were everywhere. I canned them, made muffins with them and 2 pies. The past 3 weeks I have been picking wild blackberries. These I had never noticed before. I knew we had bramble type bushes but didn't know they were blackberries. I have done so much canning and there is still more to do. This is what I call abundance. God has filled the bushes in my yard with berries and the trees in my yard with apples and pears. I have canned enough fruit to give jam to all our 9 children and their familes, other family members and friends for the holidays plus I have some left over to sell. I will be selling 8 oz jars at my website http://emeraldhillhealing.weebly.com/ until the extra is gone.
Thank you Lord for the Abundance. Love and Blessings Anne

The Hermit Crab

I spent the day at the beach on Wednesday. In the morning it was low tide but coming in. My daughter Bianca and Iwent to look for treasures. We picked up empty shells of different shapes and sizes, feathers from the sea gulls, sea tumbled pieces of bricks and sea glass and every so often a small piece of drift wood. When we filled up the big plastic cups we brought we took our treasures back to my parent's home and rinsed off the sand.

After we had lunch it was back to the beach for the afternoon. The tide had come in and the water was so clear and clean. We put down our chairs and towels and went in the water. It was cold at first but not that numbing cold that actually makes you hurt. Little by little we inched our way deeper and deeper. As soon as I was able to totally duck in the water I was fine. I swam and enjoyed the energy from the salt water. I love how the salt holds you up and it is so easy to float. I made my way into that water a few times during the afternoon because the sun was so hot I needed relief. On one of my trips in the water, something happened to catch my eye. I don't know why I noticed this. I have seen many shells before but there was something about this one. I looked and looked and finally saw that this shell had legs. I was able to grab it and I brought it out of the water into the light. For the first time in 51 yrs of going to this beach, I had found a hermit crab. I was very excited about finding this small animal and I showed my family. Of course I couldn't keep this little animal but I did get to take pictures of it before I let it go free.

For days I wondered about the meaning of my finding this animal. I looked in my animal totem book but the hermit crab was not there. I knew in my heart there was a message there but I just wasn't finding it. For me to see this very small animal through the water was amazing. I can't believe I even noticed it so I knew I was meant to find meaning. Tonight I went looking online for an answer. I got it from "From Gift From The Sea" by Anne Morrow Lindberg. she says …" One is free, like the hermit crab, to change one’s shell. "

These past few months I have been fighting change. I have been holding on to life as I knew it not as I know it today. Deep inside I know I am changing and it is a change for the better but any change is difficult. I need to leave the past behind and go on to my future. I need to trust that I will be led in the right direction. Time to shed that old shell that has become too small and look for a better fitting one with room to grow.

An observation I made on Wednesday is that the beach I have visited every summer of my life is changing. The water was cleaner, the sandpipers were back and I hadn't seen them in years. There were terns swimming on the water. I am not sure what kind of terns they were but I had only seen them once in before at this beach. I am not sure if these changes are good or not. Hermit crabs are something new to that beach. The crab was in a periwinkle shell. I didn't notice many periwinkles on the rocks. They are usually everywhere. Over the years the starfish disappeared. Could these changes be happening because of global warming? I am no scientist to see there are many changes happening in our physical world and also in our spiritual world. I guess for me it is time to change also. Love and Light Anne

Another Goodbye

Today I went to visitng hours at the local funeral home to pay my respects to the family of a 21 yr old boy I took care of when he was just a little baby. He had grown into a very handsome young man and spent the last 21 yrs touching people's lives with his smile. The line was long but I didn't mind waiting. When I hugged his mom all she could say was "You held him as a baby". I think it brought her back to those days. He would cry for his mom then and now she is crying for him. I had rehearsed what I would say but all I said was "Yes I did, Yes I did". i wanted to tell her something that would help her, I wanted to tell her I would be there if she wanted to talk sometime. Maybe she will know that.
This had been the first time I had been to this funeral home since Mary died. He was in the same spot she had been in. Both young people gone too soon. Both the physical shell that is left after the spirit leaves the body. All the bright energy, their light gone from this form. But they are not dead. Their light lives on and we will join them when it is our time.
Always tell the people you love that you love them. I love you......Anne

Feeling Better

Everyday seems to be better than the last. I am now feeling like I am out of the fog. I looked back at the emails I sent out when I was going through the break down and it is a little scary. I pray that I never get that low again. A very good friend told me about a website that I should check out www.starchildglobal.com and to read the following item "Earthlog 1st August: Solar Eclipse and... here we go!". I think this may have something to do with my breakdown. At least it may have contributed to it. We as Lightworkers are very sensitive to energy changes. I have also learned that it isn't always what is happening in my life but how I react to it. I need to take care of me and keep myself happy. I am the only one who can make myself happy and I shouldn't depend on others to do it for me. Of course there are things that people do that make me feel good. It is up to me to continue that good feeling and not depend on others for it.
I went to see a movie for the first time in a couple of years. The movie was "Mama Mia". I laughed so hard and truly enjoyed myself. I can't stay cooped up in this house so much. I need to get out and be around people. Maybe this break down was a blessing in disguise. I now know that I can't go on living like a hermit. I need to be around people, I need to be outside in the sunshine or even in the rain. I need to love the person I am inside and know that I am ok! Thank you all for your love and support. Love and Light Anne

Looking Up!

Yesterday afternoon I had such a burst of energy. I went outside and the sun was shining and it was just the right temperature. I thought I would do some gardening but I saw my husband riding the mower and mowing the lawn and thought, "I should try that" and I did. My husband showed me how to work it and I was off. I felt a little shaky at first because there were some dips and things but after I did it for ahwile I felt more confident. I smelled the fresh air and felt the breeze blowing in my face. I truly enjoyed the experience. When I was finished mowing I walked my labyrinth with a bit of a spring in my step. I got to the center and for some reason as I was standing there I looked up. Such a beautiful sight like looking at different dimensions. Looking through the pear tree and then the willow tree and finally the sky. I realized that I spend so much time looking down not wanting to trip over anything. Being so careful makes me miss out on the beauty around me. Maybe I should just trust that I will not trip and fall and even if I do, I can pick myself back up and continue on my way. Isn't that what I am doing right now?
After supper I went for a walk with my little dog Zeke. Instead of watching the ground before me I spent much of the time looking up. I saw such beauty and I did not trip. From now on I will try my best to trust that God will keep me walking and if I fall He will send the angels to help lift me up so I can continue to travel my path. Love and Light Anne

Baby Steps

A week has gone by with only a little progress but at least there is some progress. I did try the cymbalta but it made me sick. I couldn't bring myslef to take it even one more day. I am back on the more natural path to wellness, walking my labyrinth and praying helps. Watching funny shows on TV also helps. I am taking naps when I am tired and last night I slept very well for the first time all week. There are times when I still get kind of weepy but I have found that calling and talking with one of my daughters or my step daughter or my mom really helps me. I don't like to bother my friends although I don't think my true friends would mind. I have received rocks from different parts of the US from my online friends. They are beautiful and hold such healing energy. I hold each one everyday to feel that energy and love that was sent along with them. I am sending rocks from my home to them also. I am blessed and thankful for these wonderful loving people that have been put in my path. God Bless Anne

Slipping Again?

Well, I guess I am going to have to give in about the meds. I just can't stand feeling like this anymore. I feel ok for a little while and then the least little thing starts me spinning downwards. I think that smoking used to help me with this in the past but I am not going back to that. I just have to get my head in a good place again. The doc really believes it is a chemical imbalance. That is actually starting to make sense to me. I guess it is worth a try. I can always go off them if they don't help or I get side effects. I can also do my spiritual and energy work along with taking the meds. So tonight I will start. Please say a prayer if you get a minute. Love Anne

Pills Won't Fix It!

Today is the first day I feel like the fog is lifting a little even though it is pouring rain outside. I went to see the doctor yesterday and she prescribed an antidepressant. I read about it and the side affects. Do I really want to take the chance to make my situation worse? Yes, I went through a horrible event and I don't ever want to feel that low ever again but will pills take it away? Won't they only treat the symptoms? Shouldn't I try and find out what is at the core of my sadness and work on that? Would talking to a professional help me? How about regular exercise, listening to music, laughing at silly jokes, meditation? There has to be some way to fix me without putting chemicals into my body. I am going to find a way. Let me start by sharing these beautiful flowers with you. Love Anne

Starting the Climb

After two days of crying and sleeping I woke up pretty tired this morning. My husband is going to stay. Either way I have to work on me. I guess I would call this a bit of a detour. It takes a lot of energy to do the simple things I always took for granted. I did a tiny bit of shopping for food and was polite to the folks I saw, smiling as I masked the pain inside. When I got home I put the food away and took two of my prayer sticks that I hadn't painted or decorated and used them to prop up two tomato plants. They worked pretty well. the weather was just right today and for the first time in weeks I walked my labyrinth. I was mindful of each ring and each chakra it represented. When I got to the center I forced myself to find things to be thankful for. The warm breeze felt good and so did the sun on my face. I hadn't eaten much over the past few days so I made a lunch and ate it. A college gounselor caled about my going back to school but this just isn't the time to talk about that. I think I will wait awhile. A call came in for an interview and I said yes. At least is sin't until Wednesday.By now I was tired again so I took a pill knowing the family would be getting home soon and took a little nap. When I woke up and went to the kitchen I noticed that the bananas were getting too ripe so I found a recipe for whole wheat banana muffins and made them. Then I made supper. I had bought some frames the other day so I printed out some of my flower photos and framed them. I know it sounds so boring but it was wonderful to be able to do these few things and enjoy them. I am kind of feeling like I am a bit breakable and the least little bit of stress could send me over the edge. Each step is a blessing.
Thank you Lord for the blessings today. Love and Light Anne

hitting bottom

Well, here I am sitting at the botom of this huge black hole and not quite sure how to get myself back up. I did get a lot of help to get down here. All those jobs I didn't get, All those friends who stopped calling because we couldn't afford to go out, All the people who just advise me to get a job. Just look for one they say. What do they think I am trying to do. Now the troubles with the one person I thought I could count on. I am not sure if these drugs are working for me. I feel kind of drunk in my body because I am off balance but my head is clear, I am not constantly crying like I was before. My husband is looking into moving back to Michigan. It will take some time to get over that pain. Deep down I think he will be happier there with his family. I will get better and go on with my life. Maybe I should take back my maiden name Cirella. I am proud of that name and really never wanted to give it up. Maybe! Now to find one little thing to bring me a glimpse of joy. Aha, there they are. My little bundles of unconditional love. Thank you Lord for showing me where my light comes from.

Holding on by a Thread

A few years ago we had to have our barn torn down becasue it had become dangerous. It was a bit sad to see it go. All the wood ended up in a huge pile in my back yard and we had to burn it. It smoked for over a week.

Unfortunately our little trees went with it, so we thought. They had become blackened and we thought for sure they were gone for good. Well this year new shoots started growing on these 2 trees. I was amazed to see this new growth coming from something I thought was dead.

About a month ago we noticed that the smaller of the two trees had been broken in half. We weren't sure if it had been struck by lightening or if a bear had pulled it over. Since there were no burn marks we decided it must have been a bear. We also found some bear scat close by.

My husband was going to take the rest of the tree down but hadn't gotten around to it.

On one of my daily outings in my yard I noticed that the part of the tree that was on the ground was growing these tiny cherries. This top of the tree which was now lying on the ground was still alive and growing fruit. I examined the break and found that the top of the tree was still hanging on by a thread. I could see the sap running through and spilling out of the break.

I was in awe and the thought that came to me was, there are times when we are tested and even feel broken but if we can just hold on to our Faith, even if it is only by a thread, we can come back and flourish and produce the fruits of life.

There are times in life when we feel we can't hold on any longer. If you get to this point please try to remember this lesson in nature of the little tree who against all odds held on to life.

Love and Blessings Anne

The Beauty Grows

While I was walking in my yard the other day and taking pictures of flowers and the trees, I was just amazed at the life I saw. Where was it before. I have lived here for 23 yrs. I guess I wasn't paying attention. It is true what they say about being more attuned to life and the beauty around us when we become more spiritual. I notice so much more now.

Everything is growing fast and wild with all this rain and humidity. I took a picture of my day lillies and noticed that a wild grape vine was trying to strangle it. That day lily showed all of it's beauty even though it was fighting this vine. It reminds me of myself. Life trials try to get me down. Stress strangles me to the point of not being able to breathe. I can either cave into it and let the depression and anxiety take over or I can fight like the day lily and bring the beauty of the Light within me to those around me. Maybe that Light will help another to break free of their vines. If we all worked at freeing ourselves from these vines and let our light shine bright and touch the hearts of others what a beautiful world this would be.

What a lovely visualization this would be. Seeing those vines just fall away and the Light shining brightly from within us grow and grow and soon touch another. Then the vines of that person would fall away at the sight of this Light and the Light within that person would grow and grow and touch another and another. Seeing this in my mind brings me joy. I hope it will bring you joy also.

This Little Light of Mine, I'm Gonna Let it Shine!!!!!!!!!!

Love Anne/Emerald

The Luna Moth

After a very rough couple of days when I felt like giving up, I was sent a gift, a sign letting me know all would be well. I had never seen a luna moth before in person. I had seen pictures but they really don't show the magic of actually being in the presense of one.

Yesterday ny husband had gone outside and immediately came back to get me and my camera. He wanted to show me something on the front lawn. There is was. Such a mystical sight. I thought to myself, could it be a fairy? The wings were so large and so beautiful. I was so excited but also sad because I could tell this beautiful creature was going to die. His wings were tattered and he couldn't fly anymore. I didn't want to leave him out in the awful windy damp weather so I brought him inside and placed him in a large container with some grass for bedding. I had hoped he would dry up and i could release him tomorrow. Well tomorrow came and he had died over night. I now have him in my special room where others can come and see his beauty. I truly feel this was a gift and it is very meaningful that my husband found it and shared it with me. I hope you enjoy the pictures. From what I have read about Luna Moths it is very rare to find one because they only live a week and are usually out at night. Love and Light Anne

Why Don't Spirits Talk to us all The Time?

This question came up today and I think it is a good one. Here is my answer.
Spirits are on such a high vibrational frequency that it is very difficult to hear them. Also they do not communicate like we do physically so it takes a lot for them to make sound like voices. Spirits even have trouble communicating with mediums at times. The easiest way to communicate is trying to higher your vibration. You can do this in meditation, with certain music, by eating higher vibrational foods and things of that nature. Also in the time when you are just falling asleep or just waking up you are more sensitive to spirit. Pay attention to what you hear during this time. Spirits also visit in dreams. Those dreams are actually After Death Communications or ADC's. I wrote about one I had with my step daughter at in a previous post. It was a very beautiful experience. Spirits do not just hang around us after they pass. They live a spiritual life in Heaven/Otherside. Right after they pass many times there is a time of orienting (not sure if that is a word) themselves to being spirit again. The love they have for us does not die and they do visit us but we must let them live on where they are and not expect them to be constantly attached to us here on earth. Imagine living your physical life constantly looking over someone's shoulder. That wouldn't be much fun. They have done their job here on earth. We should allow them to enjoy where they are now. I know most people say "Rest in Peace" but I think the last thing they want to do is rest. I believe they have a very active and beautiful life where they are. Have a great weekend! Anne

Love Yourself First!

Today, in an email conversation, I had gotten a response to what I wrote yesterday about "Love Thy Neighbor". The rest of that is "As Thyself". I wrote about this a couple of months ago. Seems that the "As Myself" must come first. But then again, I am not happy with everything about myself. I don't think that stops me from loving others. Most people have flaws that they are not happy about. For me right now it is my weight. So I am doing all I can to loose the weight in a healthy way and at the same time trying to search for the emotional reason that I put on weight in the first place so I can make sure it doesn't keep happening. Do I love the me inside? Yes. So maybe that is why I can love others so deeply. I know I am a good spirit and that is the part that I love and it doesn't matter what I look like. I am not perfect and have my bad days when I may not be the most pleasant person to be around but that is my human self coming through and that is ok. We all have bad days.
When I was growing up we were taught not to be conceited but I think we took it too far and thought that if we thought good about ourselves then we were conceited. I remember kids in school talking about students who thought they were the best and how conceited they were. Well when I think back I realize these students just had a real healthy self-esteem and felt good about who they were. I wish I had learned that back then growing up. But I know it now and I try to teach my children and will do my best to teach my grandchildren too.
It isn't easy to change years of certain ways of thinking but when those ways are not helpful to us we need to shut off the tape recorder and start using a cd player. Past is past and only what you are now is important so feel free to Love Who You Are and then you will more easily Love Others. Have a Blessed Day! Anne

Love Thy Neighbor!

An email came today at the ministers forum I belong to from a fellow minister. In this email was the story of the beating of her 17 yr old son who is gay. This young man was beaten and left for dead. He now has a metal rod down the length of his back and metal vertebrae in his neck. He is afraid to go anywhere alone. How can this happen? How can anyone hate another so much. But people do hate and we see hate crimes all the time. Even some who are self proclaimed Christians, who go to church every Sunday, hate others who are different. If you truly love God then you cannot hate. If you are filled with that love there is no room for hate. I have heard all my life "We are only human". Not true, We are Spirit too. If we can find our spiritual self and live in a spiritual way then we become less human but more humane.
Every soul on this earth is meant to be here and every soul on this earth is unique and beautiful. We all carry the Light inside and even though there are times we might have to look deep inside, it is there. I try not to look at the physical as this is only a shell. I try to look for the spiritual which is who we really are. It isn't always easy.
One thing that really bothers me is there are times that the general public will react to seeing animals mistreated ( and they should) but those same people turn away and don't do a thing when a person who is different is being mistreated.
My grandson who is 3 yrs old has a syndrome of some kind but they haven't found which one he has yet, they have put him on the autism spectrum for now and that is good because he gets help. My daughter is so worried about him getting picked on when he gets to regular school. Isn't it sad that we live in a world where we would even have to worry about such things.
What happened to "Love Thy Neighbor"? Does it say Love Thy Neighbor if he/she is straight or Love Thy Neighbor if he/she has the same beliefs as you do or Love Thy Neighbor if they look like you and act like you? No, the bible says "Love Thy Neighbor". Of every rule that was written in the bible I feel this is the most important rule to live by. There is really no need for the other rules because if you truly love your neighbor then you wouldn't want to hurt them in any way.
Some people are easy to love and then there are others who are almost impossible to love, but we have to try to find it within to love them. It is better for us to feel love than hate and anger. Think about how you feel when you are angry. Think about how your body feels physically and emotionally. It feels awful. Imagine feeling like that for any length of time. Then think about how you feel when you love or are happy. I would prefer to be happy and loving. So our job is to share the love. Show people that love is the best way.

Maybe we should learn a lesson from nature. In the picture you see a butterfly and a honey bee. Both are insects but they do not look alike at all. They are totally different yet they share the nectar of this flower. They do not fight over it. The butterfly doesn't beat up the bee because the bee is different. They just peacefully share. Why can't people do this?????

Acceptance and love of others is a goal that we as spiritual beings should be striving for.

People say "What can one person do?" You can be an example to others. Spread love to all. Give a smile to someone you walk by. I bet that person will smile back. Possibly then that person will smile at someone else and so on and son on. The ripple affect starts with one person. Start the ripple. I love you!!!! Anne

Graduation

My daughter graduated from high school tonight. It was so exciting. As some of the speakers came up to the microphone and gave their speeches, I found myself going back to earlier days when my girl was little. She was born a sweet girl and hasn't changed. She has one of the biggest hearts and a great capacity to love. It is almost unreal to me that she is an adult. The time went by so fast but yet not so fast. Eighteen years. Do the years go faster when we are older? Makes me think that I had better really make the most of each day.
All of my children were at the graduation. It has been hard the past few years to get all five in one place at one time but today they were all there to celebrate this joyous day. Five of my 6 grandchildren were there also. I feel blessed to have my kids and their kids.
Thank you Lord for my family and thank you for helping my daughter get through her tough times and get to this day. Many times I was afraid she wouldn't make it but with the help of God and all the prayers we said she did make it. Hooray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just Thinking!

The past few days were so hot here that I had to stay away from the computer. When I can afford it I will have to get an air conditioner in here. I spent most of the time in my livingroom in the air conditioning.

Everytime I took Zeke outside, I would pull some weeds in my garden on the way back in. I couldn't do too much at one time because of the heat. I was amazed at the amount of weeds growing there. For some reason I didn't notice they had grown so thick choking all my plants.

I could compare those weeds to the thoughts in my mind. Those thoughts multiply and before I know it my mind is full of thoughts. Now of course, some of these thoughts are not so healthy. Many are about things I don't really need to worry about but still they show up. Before I know it these thoughts are choking my present moment. I end up with headaches from all this thinking sometimes. Looks like it is time to start my weeding of thoughts. A little bit at a time I just have to let them go. Give them away. It happens in steps for me. I can't just let it all go at once.
I keep the healthy thoughts, my creative thoughts. They are like my plants and flowers about to bloom.
I keep thinking that I will learn to stop this thinking from happening but the thoughts still come just like the weeds in my garden. But....the more I weed the less weeding I will have to do. Taking them up by the roots may keep them from coming back. Some roots are very deep and I have to keep digging and digging until I can finally pull them out. Many of my thoughts are just as stubborn. The key is to not give up. Keep working at it. The reward will be a beautiful garden in the end. Love and Light Emerald/Anne

A Full View of the Labyrinth

About 4 years ago I went to a workshop and learned how to build a labyrinth. The Labyrinth is a path leading to a center and back out again. Priests and monks of ancient times walked the labyrinth to meditate. The reason I built this labyrinth was for healing. Healing of the mind, spirit, physical body and healing for the earth. The labyrinth consists of 7 rings and a center. Each ring represents a chakra in the body. Ring 1- root chakra, ring 2- sacral chakra, ring 3-solar plexus, ring 4-heart chakra, ring 5-throat chakra, ring 6-third eye chakra and ring 7-crown chakra. Walking the labyrinth balances the chakras of the body and it also balances the left brain and right brain. I have had personal healing from walking this labyrinth and many who walk it tell me they feel peace when walking the labyrinth and actually feel this peace for days after walking it.

My Visit With Mary

My step-daughter Mary passed on September 20, 2006 at the age of 27. It was a very difficult time in my life but it brought me to a new spiritual understanding. I miss her and will always love her very much.

One of the first things that happened to me after my step daughter passed happened about a week after. I was dreaming. In this dream my family and I were sitting on the floor in a dimly lit room. We were talking about Mary. There was someone sitting in my lap but she had her back to me and I didn't notice who she was. I was telling my family that I didn't get a large enough lock of Mary's hair to make a braid. The person sitting in my lap then said that I could have a lock of her hair to add to Mary's. She then said "See it matches." That is when I looked at this person and realized it was Mary. She looked the way she did when she was a young girl. Happy and cheerful without the pain she had before she passed. I was so happy to see her and I grabbed her and hugged her. Then a brilliant light came and started to envelope her. I tried to hold on to her but the light grew stronger. It was taking her away. I was so upset that I woke up with my arms outstretched. The light was still there in my room. So bright I could not open my eyes. I felt a warmth heating up my chest. I was so afraid that I pulled away from the light. I lay there in my bed until the room got dark and the warmth was gone. It was then that I could open my eyes and saw that my room was as it should be.
It wouldn't be until a few months later that I would find out what this was. It is called an ADC ( After Death Communication). What I was experiencing was Mary going to the Light. I feel so blessed that Mary shared this experience with me. I only wish I hadn't been afraid at the time. Maybe I am not meant to see the Light yet.

Concerns for the Kids

My concerns for kids now a days is growing. My 15 yr old tends to share things that are going on with the kids around him with me. I am glad he does. People tell me that things aren't as bad now as it used to be when I was a kid. I have to disagree. There seems to be far more depression with the kids now. I don't know if it is because both parents have to work now and possibly they are so worried about how to make ends meet that the kids just don't get the attention they need. Maybe TV and video games have something to do with it. We had some pretty violent cartoons when I was young but the thing was, they were cartoons. Now the movies are extremely violent and everything looks so real. Is this desensitising our children?

A few of us know about the Indigo children but so many people who actually work with our children have no idea and don't know how to treat these highly sensitive children.

I had to tell a girl's family that she was cutting herself yesterday. My son told me about it and he was very upset. I knew I had to make sure this girl was safe so I called her family. I have been through this myslef with a child and it is so important that they get help and stay safe. Thankfully everything worked out in my situation but if I hadn't noticed there was a problem, who knows what it might have escalated to.
There are no groups for these children to go to where they can be themselves. They get picked on terribly in school. they get confused and scared because they just don't understand why they are so different than other kids. We as Lightworkers need to watch out for these special, sensitive children. If one of these children is put in your path help to nurture them. Sometimes even their families don't understand them. Take the initiative and talk to their families if you feel comfortable doing that. Even if it isn't comfortable, sometimes it is necessary as it was for me last night.
I am putting togather a youth group of sorts with a friend of mine. We are starting small with our family and friends but who knows how big it may grow. We are starting with a Reiki I class for them. At least they will have a place to meet and learn the things they don't learn in school.
Love and Light Anne

My Inner Child

I have been thinking about my inner child lately. Sometimes my inner child comes out and I feel awesome and have fun. I play!! I even told my family that I am going to have fun from now on and I don't care if others think I am nuts. If I want to sing to the music in the grocery store I will and if I want to skip down the sidewalk I will. If I want to make a sand castle I will. I think you get the picture. My inner child has been wanting to come out and today ?i received an email about the inner child and I have no idea where it came from but I feel it was validation that what I have been feeling is right. Play!!!!! Love!!!!! Let that inner child come out and experience the joy. I love you!!!! Anne

Leave it to Spirits

Saturday night I couldn't get to sleep so I went to visit some friends in a chat room in Buzzen.com. While I was there I kept seeing a woman. She wouldn't leave so I thought maybe she was here to speak to someone in the chat room. I gave her description to the room but no one connected with her. I was getting tired and decided to leave the chat room. The woman still wouldn't leave so I asked her to show me where to go. I somehow ended up in a chat room I had only visited a couple of times and that was almost a year ago. I asked if I could share this spirit and they said yes. Well, she ended up being the owner of the chat room's mom's friend who had passed. I was so thank ful that she had led me to where I needed to be. I was able to do the reading and the owner was very happy that we showed up.
Isn't it funny how we end up in the right place at the right time if we just listen to what is being told to us. We are not always told by a physical voice but it could be a feeling, a dream, a knowing. We should always follow our intution. Love and Light Anne

Feels like Fall!

Talk about a weather change. Yesterday I was wearing capris and a t-shirt and today I am all bundled up again. Not that I mind a crisp day. I got out there this morning to take some pictures.

The wind has been whipping and those beautiful apple blossoms are gone but...now we have lilacs blooming. Isn't it wonderful that we have time to enjoy one beautiful creation and when it is gone we have another to enjoy. I wonder if the lilacs and apple blossoms were both blooming at the same time, if I would have had the time to enjoy both as much as I did just the apple blossoms.

As I took some pictures of the lilacs I noticed something that flew very quickly away from the bush and then back. I was so surprised to see it was a hummingbird. He was tiny. I wish I could have gotten a picture of him but he took off.

Last night was the 3rd meeting of the "A New Earth" study group some of my friends and I decided to start. When Oprah and Eckhart Tolle were doing the online classes, I started them but stopped about the 7th chapter. After talking about it with some friends we though that we would like to take the classes slower than one a week. I downloaded all the classes and we take one class and chapter a month. We meet twice a month. the first meeting we watch the class pausing when we want to comment or discuss something. The second meeting we get together and share our workbooks and thoughts from the chapter.

We talked a lot about the ego last night and how to recognize when the ego was taking over. We also talked about the self talk that comes into our heads, those tapes running over and over again from what we have learned about ourselves from past experiences. Seems my mind is very busy with thoughts that don't need to be there. We also talked about identifying with things and how these things make us feel worthy or the lack of things or images we are supposed to live up to make us feel unworthy.

Today as I was taking my shower something came to me. "I am". I have heard this many times but I just didn't get it because the "I am" was always followed by something like I am a mother, I am a teacher, etc, etc. Even though Eckhart talked about this it didn't really hit me until this morning. "I am". there are many roles I play but they are not who "I am". They are not the essence of "I am". I have identified with so many roles that at this point I don't know who "I am" but I get glimpses of that essence within and there are no words to describe the feeling of "I am" so I won't try. Love and Light Anne

Trip to Gemstar

Yesterday my friends Edwina and Lynn picked me up and we went off to Gemstar. We all needed jewelry materials. Gemstar is an awesome place where you can buy most any kind of beads, jewelry making supplies, gemstones, rocks, crystals, geodes and lots more. I am overwhelmed when I go there because there is so much to see and so much I want to buy. I had a limited amount to spend so i was very careful. We were there for one and a half hours but you could really spend an entire afternoon in there. I thought I would get out of there without buying a crystal but I was wrong. One small crystal called my name and I just had to get it. I needed one for my Reiki anyway.

The 2 pictures at the top are of shelves that are just outside the main building. I couldn't take pictures of the inside where most of the beads are because there were so many people in there. The next picture on the left is one of my favorite places at gemstar. The garden is filled with tumbled stones in many shapes and colors. When I am looking for chakra stones I look there. I only wish I could line my labyrinth with timbled stones. When I was walking through there I could feel the energy.

The pic on the right of the garden is a pile of rose quartz chunks. One of these times I am going to buy a chunk to put in the labyrinth.

The picture at the bottom is of some of the geodes they have for sale there. They take my breath away they are just so gorgeous. I would have to win megabucks to buy one as they cost hundreds of dollars.

After our shopping my friends dropped me off at my daughter's house nearby so I could visit my new grandson again. We all try to save gas now by car pooling or trying to get everything done in one trip. I was lucky my friends were going that way so I could go with them. Thank you Lynn and Edwina.

Time

Prom day! So much excitement. Running around getting everything done. My daughter was so nervous but also very happy. Her boyfriend was even more nervous than she was. They looked wonderful. We went to the Opera house to watch them go in. That is a big deal here in the small town I live in. Everyone comes out for prom night. I snapped some pictures and off she went. My littel girl. Does time really fly by this quickly? She is 18 now.
Wow, in another 18 yrs I will be 69 yrs old. I wonder if the time will fly by as fast as the past 18 yrs did. Life is short. I hear that all the time but when I really stop and think about it, it hits me. I hope I can make the most of the rest of my life and not waste a minute of it. But we do waste time don't we. Maybe that is ok. We do need rest time after all. We do need to take the time to notice the life around us. But then we are not really wasting time we are living life.
Days like today, the milestones in the lives of my children, make me sit and think about life. Life is good even when it is bad or sad or hard. Does that make sense? Well, to me it does. I want to feel it all. Love and Light Anne

I will be OK!

Today was a pretty good day. I spent a lot of time outside processing my wool and weeding the garden. My son was here with me for awhile because there was a half day at school and he helped me pull weeds from the garden before he left. It is amazing how much better the garden looks when the weeds are gone.
My mint has decided to show up after a long time of staying dormant. I had some last year which surprised me but this year it took over. I had to pull some of that too so my other plants would have room to grow. The mint I pulled is on a screen drying. I use it in a moth chaser sachet.
For some reason this evening things just kind of hit me and I felt sad. I took some time to myself and when I was more relaxed I went on with the making of dinner and things kind of got back to normal.
There seems to be some emotional weeds that need pulling. I guess pulling these weeds isn't as easy as pulling the weeds in a garden. Sometimes the roots of our emotions go very deep. I will continue to work at these weeds until they are cleared from my life. I need to make room so I can grow and blossom. There are things from our past that may lay dormant like the mint and then without any notice they come crashing back. This is when we need to give the past to God so He can heal us of the pain. As long as I have God by my side I know I will be ok. He sends His angels to take care of me and I know they are with me. Thank You Lord. Love and Blessings Anne

Apple Blossoms

Yesterday was kind of a hard day and I am not sure why. Maybe I was tired from being up so late at the hospital the night before. I just couldn't get out of my own way. By the end of the day I just had to do something to feel better. I decided to get outside and walk a little bit around my property and check out what was going on in nature. Getting outside always helps me get grounded. I am amazed at what I notice now. Before I started to open spiritually, I would only see the obvious things. Now I notice so much more. As I walked up the back of my field, I looked over at the ancient apple tree that stands at one of my favorite spots in the yard. The tree was covered with white and pinkish blossoms. I stopped in my tracks and just admired this tree. Imagine how many years it has been there growing. I have lived in my home for 23 years and I don't think I have ever seen it like this. The green feild was like a carpet leading to the tree. As I got closer my sinuses filled with the sweet aroma of the blossoms. I could almost taste the sweetness. I walked up to the tree and touched a lower branch pulling it gently to my nose so I could get a good whiif of the blossoms. Wow, this must be what Heaven smells like. I forgot all my worries and negative fellings of the day and just stood there breathing in the lovely scent and breathing out all the negative stuff. After awhile I went into the house to get my camera so I could take pictures to share with you. See if you can close your eyes and breathe in that scent of apple blossoms. Have a lovely day! Anne

My New Grandson

Last night May 20,2008 at 10:20 pm my newest grandchild was born. He is just such a blessing and a miracle. We are grateful and happy to have him in our family. Welcome John Jr!

The journey Continues

Welcome to Emerald Hill. I will be posting thoughts and sharing experiences in my spiritual journey here. The past year and a half have been like a roller coaster for me. My spiritual beliefs have grown to include things I was afraid to believe but now I find I must and I am no longer afraid. It has been hard to find exactly where I fit religiously. I really don't fit in any organized religion except a nondenominational one. This is why I became an ordained minister with Universal Ministries. They did not tell me what I had to believe. First and foremost I am a Christian. I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe in the Holy Trinity. Now here is where it gets tricky. I also believe in mediumship, reincarnation, reiki, angels and energy. To find out more about me please check out my website at http://www.emeraldhillhealing.weebly.com/. I will be posting as often as I can. Love and Blessings Rev Anne/Emerald