Well, here I am sitting at the botom of this huge black hole and not quite sure how to get myself back up. I did get a lot of help to get down here. All those jobs I didn't get, All those friends who stopped calling because we couldn't afford to go out, All the people who just advise me to get a job. Just look for one they say. What do they think I am trying to do. Now the troubles with the one person I thought I could count on. I am not sure if these drugs are working for me. I feel kind of drunk in my body because I am off balance but my head is clear, I am not constantly crying like I was before. My husband is looking into moving back to Michigan. It will take some time to get over that pain. Deep down I think he will be happier there with his family. I will get better and go on with my life. Maybe I should take back my maiden name Cirella. I am proud of that name and really never wanted to give it up. Maybe! Now to find one little thing to bring me a glimpse of joy. Aha, there they are. My little bundles of unconditional love. Thank you Lord for showing me where my light comes from.
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