Feels like Fall!

Talk about a weather change. Yesterday I was wearing capris and a t-shirt and today I am all bundled up again. Not that I mind a crisp day. I got out there this morning to take some pictures.

The wind has been whipping and those beautiful apple blossoms are gone but...now we have lilacs blooming. Isn't it wonderful that we have time to enjoy one beautiful creation and when it is gone we have another to enjoy. I wonder if the lilacs and apple blossoms were both blooming at the same time, if I would have had the time to enjoy both as much as I did just the apple blossoms.

As I took some pictures of the lilacs I noticed something that flew very quickly away from the bush and then back. I was so surprised to see it was a hummingbird. He was tiny. I wish I could have gotten a picture of him but he took off.

Last night was the 3rd meeting of the "A New Earth" study group some of my friends and I decided to start. When Oprah and Eckhart Tolle were doing the online classes, I started them but stopped about the 7th chapter. After talking about it with some friends we though that we would like to take the classes slower than one a week. I downloaded all the classes and we take one class and chapter a month. We meet twice a month. the first meeting we watch the class pausing when we want to comment or discuss something. The second meeting we get together and share our workbooks and thoughts from the chapter.

We talked a lot about the ego last night and how to recognize when the ego was taking over. We also talked about the self talk that comes into our heads, those tapes running over and over again from what we have learned about ourselves from past experiences. Seems my mind is very busy with thoughts that don't need to be there. We also talked about identifying with things and how these things make us feel worthy or the lack of things or images we are supposed to live up to make us feel unworthy.

Today as I was taking my shower something came to me. "I am". I have heard this many times but I just didn't get it because the "I am" was always followed by something like I am a mother, I am a teacher, etc, etc. Even though Eckhart talked about this it didn't really hit me until this morning. "I am". there are many roles I play but they are not who "I am". They are not the essence of "I am". I have identified with so many roles that at this point I don't know who "I am" but I get glimpses of that essence within and there are no words to describe the feeling of "I am" so I won't try. Love and Light Anne